New Life.
Scary; but adrenaline charged.
At 4:44am, Jan 3 of this the new year, 2010, I made some official changes to my life that will only lead to one of two things.
Disaster or contentment.
Either way, I won't regret it. I mean, it's got to end somehow. Why not make the most of it? Have fun while I'm at it. Responsible fun though, b/c I'm a mom, lol.
I remember saying something once, to someone I desperately cared about and ended up having my heart torn out by (indirectly, mind you) that made perfect sense. I'll apply it here b/c it was good advice (that I should more often take rather than give away).
Just b/c the ending sucks, doesn't mean the beginning has to. (special thanks to Hugh Laurie and HOUSE writers for that one, it came in handy).
So, 2009 left, taking with it a failed marriage, a broken career, lost-along-the-way friends, a few extra pounds, but some damn good times too.
2009 also left some insight behind for me to feed off of. Like about how not to live 2010.
-How not to expect of others what you expect of yourself, b/c you'll only be let down.
-Eating after 7pm is bad for your health.
-Spoiling your children will rot them, just like it will fruit.
-Teaching them that it's ok to be kids, priceless.
-Sharing your recipe for happiness does not translate into sharing your spouse with your best friend, no matter how much they tell you they thought it was ok.
-Good friends are like good shoes. Some come and go with styles and seasons, but there are few that you've had for many years, that go with any outfit, in any weather, are super comfy and would make you genuinely sad had you ever have to give them up.
-Regularly spontaneous road trips maintain sanity.
-God works in mysterious ways.
-The mountains have cleaner air, therefore making it more pleasant to breathe (unless you're in Colorado, where you'd be breathing in what's called mountain dust and it makes you cough and hack).
-There's always someone, somewhere who thinks you're beautiful/good looking.
-You can NEVER have too many pictures; more often than not, you'll find you don't have enough, and wish you had taken more while you had the chance.
Just to name a few.
*Most importantly, I learned from 2009 that things like love, happiness, and living are all decisions. You can either choose to live, or not. Decide to love someone or not. Be happy or not. The rest is just commitment to the idea; and commitment, depending on your personality, takes work.
Which would explain why some of us are so damn unsettled and cranky all the time. Most ppl don't like to work.
So this is me, making my decision to live, love, and be happy. Yep. 2010 should be an Amazing and Awesome year, much like myself <3
HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR FOLKS!! FOR AULD LANG SYNE! XD
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Note from the OP:
For the record (posting as of now, today, 2/18/11), this did actually end in disaster, but I still learned something. This was a bit more upbeat than previous posts, which is a nice change, but there are more depressing ones to come. I was only at the beginning of my journey, and frankly, was not at all prepared for it. You will see. But I promise, it ends happily... just gonna take several more past entries to get there!--- or you could mosey on over to my other blogs to see proof for yourself! *wink*
Thanks for the love ppls! <3
Scary; but adrenaline charged.
At 4:44am, Jan 3 of this the new year, 2010, I made some official changes to my life that will only lead to one of two things.
Disaster or contentment.
Either way, I won't regret it. I mean, it's got to end somehow. Why not make the most of it? Have fun while I'm at it. Responsible fun though, b/c I'm a mom, lol.
I remember saying something once, to someone I desperately cared about and ended up having my heart torn out by (indirectly, mind you) that made perfect sense. I'll apply it here b/c it was good advice (that I should more often take rather than give away).
Just b/c the ending sucks, doesn't mean the beginning has to. (special thanks to Hugh Laurie and HOUSE writers for that one, it came in handy).
So, 2009 left, taking with it a failed marriage, a broken career, lost-along-the-way friends, a few extra pounds, but some damn good times too.
2009 also left some insight behind for me to feed off of. Like about how not to live 2010.
-How not to expect of others what you expect of yourself, b/c you'll only be let down.
-Eating after 7pm is bad for your health.
-Spoiling your children will rot them, just like it will fruit.
-Teaching them that it's ok to be kids, priceless.
-Sharing your recipe for happiness does not translate into sharing your spouse with your best friend, no matter how much they tell you they thought it was ok.
-Good friends are like good shoes. Some come and go with styles and seasons, but there are few that you've had for many years, that go with any outfit, in any weather, are super comfy and would make you genuinely sad had you ever have to give them up.
-Regularly spontaneous road trips maintain sanity.
-God works in mysterious ways.
-The mountains have cleaner air, therefore making it more pleasant to breathe (unless you're in Colorado, where you'd be breathing in what's called mountain dust and it makes you cough and hack).
-There's always someone, somewhere who thinks you're beautiful/good looking.
-You can NEVER have too many pictures; more often than not, you'll find you don't have enough, and wish you had taken more while you had the chance.
Just to name a few.
*Most importantly, I learned from 2009 that things like love, happiness, and living are all decisions. You can either choose to live, or not. Decide to love someone or not. Be happy or not. The rest is just commitment to the idea; and commitment, depending on your personality, takes work.
Which would explain why some of us are so damn unsettled and cranky all the time. Most ppl don't like to work.
So this is me, making my decision to live, love, and be happy. Yep. 2010 should be an Amazing and Awesome year, much like myself <3
HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR FOLKS!! FOR AULD LANG SYNE! XD
-----
Note from the OP:
For the record (posting as of now, today, 2/18/11), this did actually end in disaster, but I still learned something. This was a bit more upbeat than previous posts, which is a nice change, but there are more depressing ones to come. I was only at the beginning of my journey, and frankly, was not at all prepared for it. You will see. But I promise, it ends happily... just gonna take several more past entries to get there!--- or you could mosey on over to my other blogs to see proof for yourself! *wink*
Thanks for the love ppls! <3
